This week I had a miscarriage. I’m still reeling, we hadn’t told many people we were pregnant and right now I am grateful for that. I’m feeling an overwhelming sense of disappointment. I felt like being outdoors would be the best medicine, so often I forget how good the sun and fresh air is for the soul. The kids and I have spent hours in the backyard, they play quietly and I’m lost in thought. Part of me believes that Emry & Liam sense my need for solitude right now. I don’t have any desire for things to return to normal at the moment. For now, my energy is going into quiet time to process what I’m going through.